That being said, ok, I'll talk about it. It has been a difficult few years wading through this. Between stretches of feeling strong and well and brave, there have been cycles of unfathomable weakness, agonizing pain, and joy-stealing defeat. There have been periods of weeks where I feel like I spend more days sitting in a hospital or doctor's office than I do anywhere else. All of the testing and trying and treatments leaving me wondering if I felt worse before the medicine, or after.
There are so many voices willing to extend input and suggestion, and I ask that you please give us the freedom we need to pursue the avenues we have chosen. There is so much to medicine, and so many possible equations that could be the catalyst to complete healing, but it can be overwhelming, and certainly impossible to try every regimen and procedure that's out there.
When you look at me, please see past my illness...because really, it was there before you even knew to look for it. Sure, there will be some days harder than others, but I'm still a wife, a mommy, a paramedic, a hemiplegic? Ehh, just makes things more interesting.
I appreciate your prayers as we change gears for awhile, that I would continue to gain strength and energy, relief from pain, and my story would bring glory to the One who chose it for me.
Please leave me a comment, it lets me know you're listening!